Explosion of a Ukrainian Girl
Well, I told her how I felt. She blew up like a bomb. She told me that she heard me the first two times I had told her that I couldn’t imagine myself with her long term relationships. She said, "obviously, there is something wrong with me.” "What is wrong with me?” I told her that she was amazing and wonderful, but there is just something else I prefer. It is truly that simple. She is short, cute, attentive, looks at me with goo goo eyes, takes care of me the best she can, and is amazing in bed. In fact, she shocked me. I would say the passion is equivalent to my previous girlfriend. I thought that would be impossible, but it was there.
Am I sabotaging something great? Absolutely. Why? I felt like I needed to be more honest and open with my thoughts and feelings. Would it have been worse if I had waited 6 months or even two years? – Oh, most definitely! I tried to tell her I didn’t want her out of my life. I just wanted to be completely honest. She told me that repeating myself was rude, and left. Oh well. We’ll see if I want to spend the effort to bring her back in one more time. I am just not sure. And, I am not sure that I want to bring the other tall, lead, dark girl who sent me the romantic message back either. The 3rd girl – the friend – doesn’t like me as a man, and that, as they say is that.
Perhaps I need to clean my space so that I can free up the space for the next girl to come into my life. Am I horrible? If you said yes, I’d be inclined to agree at this moment in time. However, to thine own self be true. I need to wait for someone I have that special "feeling” for.